By walls, I refer to putting up a guard and hiding our inner voice. This is something I was brought up to do as being myself would often land me in the principal's office or I would get marked down for being disobedient.
I recall one day, I approached my teacher after waiting my turn.
there were a few other students standing behind me queuing to speak to her.
Me: Excuse me miss. It appears you have not seen my tick. See here? I have checked with the other students and this check box alone is 0.5 points.
Her: You ticked that now. You are a cheater.
I recall going back to my desk, & then thumping my fists on the metal desks.
BOOM BOOM BOOM echos still wring in my ear to this day.
I then went into a sobbing attack and was taken to sit outside the principal's office.
Now you may be expecting someone would have called my parents. But no.
I cannot recall how long I sat there, the next thing I remember is sitting in our family car.
Mum: Zahra what is the matter with you?
Me: Struggling to breathe
Dad: I think she has asthma, we best take her to the hospital.
So they did.
After some initial X-rays, I saw a doctor who through asking me a series of questions unrelated to the event, managed to calm the situation down.
Dr: Did you eat lunch today?
Me: (Still not able to breathe properly)..................... Yes
Dr: What did you eat?
Me: ...............Khoreshe Badenjan (Aubergine dish)
He continued in that manner until I calmed down and concluded that I was allergic to Aubergine and told me to limit my consumption.
After that day, I stopped showing my hashtag#emotions in public. It is as though I grew up overnight. It possibly did not help that I was often told by my parents,
Mind your manners. Know your place, stop answering back.
I developed some form of selected hashtag#mutism.
Every time someone hurt me, I took to my diary, until I moved school, and made a friend I could confide in.
Luckily she is still in my life and we often reach out. Sometimes it is sharing some hashtag#music, othertimes some holiday snaps, and now and again we arrange to speak on whatsapp and catch up properly.
You are probably asking "why did you behave like that in the first place?"
Because, Exhorters do not settle until they make you feel what they are feeling, why Exhorters these days would be listed as an EBD kid.
The way to connect with exhorters is through facial expression and tonality. Perhaps the Doctor unknowingly did this?
It had nothing to do with the Aubergines!
Link to truth 2020 where you can serach for the exhorter why and how.
Conflict #1: Healthy Communication https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_oB7x3Z-BMM
Conflict
#2: Negative Interactions
Conflict #3: Unconscious Confrontation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RAbdzR38t2U
Narcissist: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLBDhwlWlNw
Argue in Three questions: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84nvYlztoOs
Dissolve Animation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0_q_fNGeDk
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